I started this BLOG to put my self out there and hope that others could “light” my way, get other point of views. BUT I didn’t FOLLOW TROUGH…which is TOTALLY NOT out of character for me..
Like I stated in my “about” section; my life has forever been changed by the death of my ONLY son’s Father, “Big Eric” (I always called him “George”)…lol…that’s another story though.
So to the real point of this post…MY SON…what information do I relay to him (Lil Eric) NOW or how long do I wait to communicate the POSITIVE things that I personally experienced; also how much and what information to share (for now at least).
“Big Eric” passed away nearly 1 1/2 years ago. It has taken that amount of time for me to remember MOST of the GOOD times that he and I went through TOGETHER. For this entire time I have ONLY been able to remember “negative” times. But some how recently ONLY GOOD MEMORIES HAVE FILLED MY HEART. Experiences that I feel will help Lil Eric in his healing process.
Most times I am so scared to “Upset” Lil Eric by bringing up his Dad. But on the other hand I know he has questions that only I can answer. Questions that he feels I am not emotionally ready to handle. How SAD that my baby boy WORRIES more about ME than HIMSELF during his own time of grieving the loss of his father.
PLEASE HELP ME…my son is 18…almost 19, and he (Lil Eric) is excited about life. Lil Eric wants to start planning his future, he’s a beautiful soul….I am BLESSED to have him in my life; GOD knows I DO NOT Deserve.
I REALLY hope to hear some opinions, hate, love, indifference, ANYTHING… Lay it on me…I deserve that and more.
Bless ALL who read this…Please post comments…xoxo
This exciting Saturday night…I am sitting in front of the TV…watching “The Hangover II”…having a glass (or 2, maybe 3, lol) of wine. My son is in his room playing video games, and my husband is doing some “keep busy” task cause he can’t sit still for more than 10 mins!
10 yrs ago on a (child free) Saturday night I would have been in the midst of my own “Hangover” escapades with my girlfriends…making memories we would laugh uncontrollably about for the better parts of the rest of our lives, and some memories that we will cringe at and swear the others never to be spoken about again, LOL!!
Where does the time go? When did fun (much more settled of course than in your 20’s fun) stop? My son will be graduating High School this June. Although he will, without a doubt, still be living in my home, I’ll be an empty nester! Ugh…WTF? I am to young for this aren’t I?
Boredom….guess I’m going to have to re-evaluate and makes changes to accommodate this next chapter of “My Life”. There is FUN to be had…I just need to figure out where it is…?