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My heart is torn between the LOVE I feel with my husband…and the LOVE/LUST I feel for another. Another?!?!

Who is another???

I do not know…

Past love that I have not recognized?

A past love who has passed on to the other side…

How am I to know?

They are both soooo familiar…

FINALLY…how do I know the difference…my heart aches…

Where do I go from here…

Please HELP me….


I have been reading previous blogs by many bloggers….

Do you believe that you have one true love?

Do you believe that you may/do have that one true love?

Can you honestly say you have never looked at/lusted/wished/dreamed or fantasized of another?

As humans we have all of the above…the respect you have for another or the love you feel for them… determines what you will do with those feelings…

HOWEVER the single readers have nothing to be ashamed of…as long as you have no previous commitment to another…LIVE, LAUGH, and pay attention to those who’s paths you cross…you wouldn’t want you to pass up the love of a lifetime…


We lose the ones that are the MOST important people, the ones we loved more than we even knew we did. The longing to say everything you held back, afraid of rejection, or “opening a can of worms” that we weren’t sure we were ready to open.

Don’t hold back…say it now…no matter what you may face, it may be your last chance to say …

I love you…

Did you love me?

I need you…

Did you need me?

I can’t live with out you…

Can you live with out me?

I need your touch…

Did you need mine?

So much more I wish to say that can never be said…living with regret!!!!


I started this BLOG to put my self out there and hope that others could “light” my way, get other point of views. BUT I didn’t FOLLOW TROUGH…which is TOTALLY NOT out of character for me..

Like I stated in my “about” section; my life has forever been changed by the death of my ONLY son’s Father, “Big Eric” (I always called him “George”)…lol…that’s another story though.

So to the real point of this post…MY SON…what information do I relay to him (Lil Eric) NOW or how long do I wait to communicate the POSITIVE things that I personally experienced; also how much and what information to share (for now at least).

“Big Eric” passed away nearly 1 1/2 years ago. It has taken that amount of time for me to remember MOST of the GOOD times that he and I went through TOGETHER. For this entire time I have ONLY been able to remember “negative” times. But some how recently ONLY GOOD MEMORIES HAVE FILLED MY HEART. Experiences that I feel will help Lil Eric in his healing process.

Most times I am so scared to “Upset” Lil Eric by bringing up his Dad. But on the other hand I know he has questions that only I can answer. Questions that he feels I am not emotionally ready to handle. How SAD that my baby boy WORRIES more about ME than HIMSELF during his own time of grieving the loss of his father.

PLEASE HELP ME…my son is 18…almost 19, and he (Lil Eric) is excited about life. Lil Eric wants to start planning his future, he’s a beautiful soul….I am BLESSED to have him in my life; GOD knows I DO NOT Deserve.

I REALLY hope to hear some opinions, hate, love, indifference, ANYTHING… Lay it on me…I deserve that and more.

Bless ALL who read this…Please post comments…xoxo